Friday, December 24, 2010

there's just so much food thought of blogging

so before i share to you our menu for noche buena, here's something i found at

do you see it? do you see it?!?! no?! wtf. it's right there!! look again!
yeah that's right! it's a tic tac toe, and guess who's in one of the winning move, das ryt! ishhh meee! ^o^
so that was lame right, i know. anyway just saw it while i logged on to my account and i found it pretty interesting so i figured i'd share with you guys.

and huurrayyy for me yay! it's actually the first time I included a picture in one of my blogs. (My artworks posted before do not count as it was not really a blog but just a sharing of my artworks!)


here's our menu for tonight! oh yeah and i've actually emptied my stomach just recently to save it for later (i know you know what I mean ;) *winks*)

so yeah ohohohoho moving on.

  • Leche Flan
  • Fruit Salad
  • Ref Cake
  • Baked Macaroni
  • Some pasta in olive oil and tuna and basille leaves and tomatoes (what's the name? o_O)
  • Roasted Chicken
  • Mangoes
  • kiat kiat (?)
So from the above list, those that are in green are my targets ^__________________^
oh wait, everything's in green teeeheeeeheee =]

That is all! I know Christmas is not just about food, just wanted to share what'll make me drool for tonight hahaha. Merry Christmas everyone!. Have a good time with your family, you'll hear from me soon guys!

Bye! =]

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I'm still up, just taking a break from our game development

...Finally, a time to blog.
There's always time for everything but when your schedule becomes hectic, your free time gets lessened. Good thing time can be split into hours, minutes, seconds, milliseconds, and nanoseconds. Now, I can finally insert some blogging time on my hectic schedule.

It will almost be a year since I applied as a peer counselor. It was the first time I decided on my own to join something. It was not the peer pressure nor the influence of friends that made me do it. It was my decision. I'm quite amazed by how things got interesting. Before I was an applicant, now I'm an organizer.
I'm part of the organizing team for the PC19 recruitment. In fact, I'm really hyped and excited because of our inputs in the concept paper. There will be a lot of twists. It's not a double up anymore, it's time to step up. step up 3d lol. But yeah, seriously, the PC19 recruitment is dubbed "Step Up 3d" where 3d would mean "dare to drive the distance" (credits to me for that title).

The thing is, I could have lead the recruitment but I figured, with lots of tasks given to me especially in the Community Spirituality Committee, and some academic tasks, I won't be able to reserve much of my time for this joyous occasion. Instead, I forced passed the job to Hubert so he focuses in the recruitment and not in the preparation of LSP for Pintakasi. just kidding hubz :D. I just can't express the excitement so I'm writing it down in this blog.

Well tomorrow's the first day and I hope it gets fine. So all of you PC Applicants out there reading my blog, be prepared for some gut-busting, head-crushing, pressurizing(?), and nerve-cracking twists that you'll encounter along the way.


My urgent/upcoming concerns

1. Software Engineering Project: Game Development
2. Robocode robot design
4.PC19 Recruitment
5.Coaches' Training
7.****** Project (ang labo di ko alam kung pwede ishare or hindi)
8.Big Bro/Sis Program

So someone asked me why I wasn't blogging for some time now. Well, here's a blog and also the reason. =]

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

this bugged me...

What if the universe that we believe as the reality is actually fantasy and everything that surround us are all made up to cover the ultimate truth?Or is there even an ultimate truth? Philosophy tries to answer these questions but the again it is just a product of the human mind, which also part of this universe. random thoughts...

Monday, November 15, 2010

the electric fan is so noisy

I don't expect to fit in to much of people's expectations or standards. But let me tell you one thing
people are simply like MnM's Peanuts. They have different colors on the outside but if you start eating them
they're all sweet. In the inside they're all peanuts.

I was never the guy of good qualities. I was never the caring type, the too kind, the very gentlemanly, the polite, the smart one, the brave one, the courageous one. Heck I was never much in any of those.
It doesn't guarantee that when you have done something good the means are good too.

I'm not a hero. I'm the anti-hero.

On a side note though,  I'm just being honest.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

new site design for me

I'm gonna test the design template for blogger. I'll do it after my programming competition on Saturday. I hope I could do a clean one this time. lol

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Happy birthday to me. Oh wait Happy November Fools' Day

Facebook says it's my birthday today. Why? because I changed my birthdate. Why? just for the heck of it.
Result: 116 happy birthday comments on my wall plus a few "it's not really his birthday" or "nakikisakay lang" messages.

I had a hearty laugh this morning. I woke up and hurried to check my account. There it was, the result of one foolish ploy. There were some who even texted me. I felt no guilt for doing it. Something just bothered me. Something happened. I was happy that it happened but I just wasn't happy of the circumstance. It happened because it was "my birthday". I could only stutter "hindi ko naman talaga birthday" as that thing happened. I don't know if it was guilt or if it was a feel of shame. What if my real birthday comes? hahaha. Anyway, it happened and I have to be honest, I was happy about it and I really liked it kind of liked it.

Well It's still my birthday after two days, hope it happens again it was a good day. Not much problems, no worries. It ended well.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

When the mind wishes for more

My mind can give a set of instructions for my body to perform. Like here I am now typing this new blog after a very long and tiring day. It has come to my attention that I regret having to pick a 7:30 - 9:00 pm class from Monday to Thursday. I never attended it yesterday(first day of class). However earlier, I discovered that the subject was pretty interesting and our teacher was also interesting. I learned some things about the Ateneo's system and I learned that most of the students shouldn't be blaming the Network whenever there's a heavy load on the enrollment.

4:30 pm
Ate snacks earlier with a friend of mine who's working at The Office. There was an exchange of stories. There were food and everything was good. After that, we returned to The Office. Something happened (not with the friend). I did something but I was too slow and I was unsure. It ended with regret. However it was okay because there'll be a lot of next time's.
Nope it was denial. If indeed it was okay I wouldn't bother mentioning about it in this blog. All I could think about was that I should have done something to avoid regret. I'm not frustrated nor angry, just a bit...slow.

5:00 pm
I sat in the corner of the room still thinking about what happened. In order to pull my self away from the grasps of that unfathomable regret, I watched the local news. Lot of things happened in the local scene. It's the first time I watched news on the television after almost 2 months. I kept watching until it was 6:00pm. It was time for class.

I'm the beadle for this certain subject which leads to a foggy path with no lights to guide us. There was a smile but it was a deceiving smile. The deceiving smile that speaks of horror. Horror in its most basic form. The form that will forever be entangled in my web of thought. However, if it was horror, I choose to face it. If the horror can smile at me, I could simply smile back. I have a lot of masks to wear and I can play the human being that's a demon in the inside. Or maybe that was just me exaggerating. There's just too much uncertainty there as I reflect and recall the experiences that I have had before. Anyway, I just have to play my part.

We were dismissed early, and I guessed it right. For some weird reason I guessed it right. I went back to The Office to wait for my next class which would be at 7:30. I sat down on the same spot where I was back at 5. Instead of the TV keeping me from the thought of regret earlier, it was vice versa. I couldn't think of anything but regret. Every 5 minutes I checked the time. Then it was 7:30

I was in class. It was my first time to attend that class. I thought It'd be boring but I was surprised with the introductory topic.As I've mentioned, it was interesting. There was a discussion until 8:30 pm.

I was strolling through Ateneo Avenue with a classmate which gave me tips on my subjects. I was thankful and as always, I am amazed by his prowess in programming. I arrived at the spot where I usually wait for my ride. There was a shrug of isolation for some moments and I was out of this world. I didn't know if there were tricycles that stopped by, I couldn't tell. It was like being in a void of darkness for some seconds then I started seing the lights again. "Calauag po sa may Azucena" then I was off that spot.

I started on this blog. There's no music on the play list. The only band that plays is My Room. My hand typing on the keyboard and the sound of the fan that makes me feel comfortable while I'm sitting in front of my desk. I'm alone but not lonely. For some reason being alone gives me clear vision of what had happened. Everything is so clear right now. It's like watching the events from an imaginary tube in front of me. There were a lot of happy moments earlier but The Regret's starting to ruin it all. I know it's my fault and I couldn't do anything about it anymore. Don't cry over spilled milk. That's what's keeping me for a while. I could only heave a big sigh on whatever happened. SIGH I was just too slow. The preparation was too long, there was no need for a timetable (lol).

Well I guess that's all. But it makes me wonder, What happened to my 12:00 - 4:30? Well there was expectation but nothing interesting happened so I guess it's not worth writing about.

My mind just wishes for more right now but it can't give everything. I can gain anything through imagining but that's about it. I think it's just my numbness and my sensitivity clashing. I hate it when it happens. I'm always in the middle. But that's just my mind. As always and as people keep telling, let the mind and the heart work in harmony. Maybe the unknown has been spreading fear again. Or maybe it's not the unknown but the fear inside me that's surfacing. But, what if it wasn't cowardice of facing what may come but courage to make the right choice, to make the right decision and not sacrifice the others?

Random thoughts.

Monday, November 8, 2010

May ChupaChups din dito sa Naga

Received a package from someone today.

it has a note that says "...walang ChupaChups sa Naga"

i don't know what was meant by that


Thank you very very much. You know who you are. See you soon :D

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Some CG artworks back from the days

crazed green

cover page for my NSTP journal

testing some vectors

result from trying a guide :)

I lost other files when i reformatted my old PCs. Those were just some from my multiply account.
If you want to see more just visit

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

before i lay, let my heart speak with its own tongue

so rare nowadays of the radiance that emanates from your face.
your smile pricks, and pinches, and pierces the very depth of my heart
which causes the trembling the sensation that only you can bring.

oh please, not a word from you, let your brilliance
bring me to my contentment
let me feel seconds turn to minutes
and minutes to hours, and hours to day as i set my sight upon you.

oh please, not a word from you, the sweetness
of your voice will only bring me to the ever deceiving daydreams
that i may perceive.
let my hungry eyes be filled and contented with the reality of the present,
the reality at the very moment,
the reality which is you.

Monday, September 20, 2010

my fiesta vacation ended at star bucks naga.

well here we go again with my oddly constructed blog, thanks much to my ever loyal broken shift key.

short post for now, fiesta's ending and tomorrow's back to the old and boring yet ever exciting college life. see the irony there lmao.


at starbucks naga while i'm waiting for my hot cafe mocha (my second drink for the night)

some random guy approached and sat beside me...

random stranger: akala ko kanina pagpasok ko ikaw si mo twister, yung artista.
me: ah talaga po, ang laki naman

random stranger and me: hahaha
random stranger: galing ka ba dito?
me: ah dito po sa naga, opo (pero sa isip isip ko lang: ay oo po sa star bucks po ako nakatira!)
random stranger: ah kami galing pang manila
me: ah okay po, vacation?
random stranger: ah oo
starbucks guy shouts: 1 tall hot cafe mocha for rex!
me: ah ung kape ko po, mauna na po ako
random stranger: ah sige

whew. it was some random guy but i didn't feel the usual irritation that i get from some random people trying to approach me and be FC.
anyway, it was a short yet nice conversation, it was just kind of funny experiencing that thing at my first time in star bucks. 

that's all for now. good night everyone.

Friday, September 17, 2010

it's fiesta time and i just thought of something to put on this blog

Hindi porke pinili nyang magkaibigan lang kayo ay di ka na nya mahal.
Hindi mo lang alam mas HIGIT ka nyang mahal dahil pinili nya kung saan
kayo mas magtatagal.. :))
have a nice day everyone! happy fiesta!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

it's a big day tomorrow and I can't sleep. I'm heading that activity and I might be late for the dry run.

what is a face?
a face brings agony and pain
like a star in the night sky
whose bright lights will shine upon
unworthy men.
the star that ever glows
and smiles upon the unfortunate men
who seek to capture
your mystery of eternal brilliance,
will only lead them to their doom.
no flesh can ever touch your
beauty while you're in ascent
as your look down below
these men
crying in pain to ever caress
your alluring soul.
how could you be so cold
oh star of the south.
your promise of warmth,
now only bring chills
that slowly freeze the hearts
of these men
as you pierce them and crush
them to a myriad of crystals
that evoke failures.

oh wondrous star,
don't you ever feel gloomy up there?
do you glow brighter
as you see men to their downfall?
won't you ever leave Libra
and descend to feel
I've roamed the earth
and all I could see
are the rising cries of agony.
Will the same be my destiny?
or will you ever come down for me?
You're a star. you are in the heavens
while I'm embraced by the green
grass, staring at the night sky
wondering if we could ever unite.

I can only have faith.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Kuro kuro, chismis, paninirang puri

May malaking isyu, at ang isyung ito ay inulan ng luha at laway. teka lang, laway?
oo laway. hindi na siguro maiiwasang sa bawat isyu ay may tsismis na nakadikit.
ewan ko ba, akala ko nung una ung mga nasa telebisyon lang ay artista, yun pala
ikaw at ako, pwede na!

nakakatawa man isipin na sa bawat galaw mo ay may mga matang nagmamatiyag sayo.
minamasdan bawat kilos mo at naghihintay ng pagkakamali upang mayroon lamang mapagusapan sa barkada.
kahit siguro ang pagdukot mo ng iyong kulangot ay nagiging isyu na at ang masaklap pa, ito'y ikakalat nila
sa buong iskwela. may mas malala pa, nung una dumukot ka lang ng kulangot. tapos pagdating dun sa isa, pinunas mo daw sa katabi mo. tapos nung dumating sa pinakahuling tao na napagsabihan, kinain mo pa daw ito.
YUCCKKYYY!!! oo nga naman, kadiri talaga! pero bakit mas naging kadiri pa? eh diba dahil sa kanila?

oh well, sabi nga ng iba, look at the bright side na lng daw. anu naman kung natsismis ka, dating mo naman pangartista?

ay naniwala ka naman, oh sige magpakatanga ka. jan ka na nga, bahala ka na!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

is it because i spent less time talking with you, or is it because i spent more time just staring at you?

nothing exciting happened. just the same old boring routine.
go to school
decide to attend/miss class
look at the clock while the clock hands strike through the ever-changing course of human nature
stare at people.

oh wait, ignore the first line.
i got frustrated.

good night.maybe next time.. next time.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

when you report, you don't just read your presentation or your visual guide

church and sacraments class
status: bored

tonight i lay in my bed and sleep tight
i'll dream of faraway lands and green meadows
i'll walk in the plazas of italy and roam the streets of rome
tomorrow i sail the seven seas
on the third day i'll visit the london bridge
i will cross the atlantic and stroll new york
i dream of faraway places
i dream to travel and find happiness
but when i woke up it was all a dream
when i met you and saw your face i started to wonder
i thought dreaming was over
i tried to pinch my self ti see if i'm really awake
when i did, all i could say was hi
you smiled and said hello!
but sad i was, you had to go
nevertheless, i saw that face of yours
which i'll remember even in the days to come
i dream of paris, seoul, and singapore
but your smile i could only find here at home


i wrote this within 5 minutes because the topic reporters were really bad

Monday, August 30, 2010

One more month and you're about to wake me up.

disclaimer: no caps, no proper sentence structure shift key broken

this month is about to end and now i wonder whatever happened to my june and july. time flies so fast that a lot of things could happen in a split second. i'm here right now typing on my laptop and wondering at the same time what might happen with my september. oh well i'm contented with what had transpired but i still hope for bigger things to come. funny some people might have found their own paths to walk through and others just want to explore more, but the thing is, a few seconds have passed and *poof* new people come, you meet them, you greet them, and now they're your friends.

so much for that, i would like to start this day by saying fuck you guys hahahaha.
well i don't mean anything mean, it's just my way of uhmm probably 'waking you up' lol
and yeah, speaking of waking up, i woke up real good, slept real good. it's been cold though.
now i have to live through this day. my goal would be to come back to bed alive. i just have to survive easy ain't it. gahh retarted keyboard, i can't even type question marks.

i'm looking for a great day ahead. doing good stuff, doing the usual things, and meeting beautiful people.
with that, i end this post by saying get up you lazy asses, the sun's waiting for you.

i woke up and the grasses are green

oh haii there.

So guys, you see, life isn't complicated.
You only need to wake up, survive, and sleep.

that's all for my initial post ^_^
have a nice day you trolls.